i'm not sure what to write here tonight because i am sleepy and i don't want to stay up too late. i mean, i will probably stay up too late anyway but i should get off of my computer soon at least. i've been meaning to make a diary page that is more stream of consciousness for my thoughts and feelings so this exists now.
a few weeks ago i was having a panic attack and scrolling through tumblr in an attempt to focus my brain on something and i saw some posts that made me realize that i haven't written about my feelings on the internet in a vulnerable way in a very long time. maybe a decade? i don't really know what to attribute this to other than simply not having a designated place to do so that feels appropriate.