when received my dream tarot deck back in april, the merchant that i ordered from included these 3 cards in the package.
my brother has been curious about my oracle cards so he randomly comes into my room to pull cards. a lot of the time it doesn't feel so random because it's when i am getting lost in my head about things. sometimes he will pull cards that i did a few days prior. like our ancestors are confirming things for me when i am doubting myself.
i love my life <3
my brother was pulling wild child oracle cards for me and a few of them fell into a bag as soon as he pulled the bloom card. we had to dig them out and count the cards again because we didn't know how many fell. it was 3. the reflection, opportunity, and flight cards
there are 3 pink roses and 3 white daisies
"the number of pink roses used in an arrangement also has its own unique meaning. A bunch of just three pink roses, for example, says ‘I love you’ "
daisies are "frequently associated with purity, childbirth, new beginnings, and cheerfulness. daisy petals symbolize innocence and are commonly associated with childhood memories of collecting wildflower bouquets. flower girls scatter daisy petals at weddings to represent the purity of love"
asked for 6 cards, not taking reversals and using the guidebook for the deck
the empress, 8 of pentacles, the high priestess, the lovers, the hanged man, 6 of swords
the empress: the empress embodies love, beauty and creative energy. she is wealthy,resourceful and abundant. she is surrounded by the fruits of her labor.
everything she touches turns into gold. she knows her value. she is powerful and resourceful. success is always within reach. the empress can sometimes refer to an older feminine energy
8 of pentacles: hard work and determination. the pentacles on this card are clocks and the man in the card is holding one of the clocks and looking at it.
clarified with the sleepwalker's lenormand. the ring. " put on this ring, and our lives will be bound together forever. keywords: commitment, marriage, partnership, cooperation, recuurrences, reincarnation, loop
the high priestess: used the lenormand to clarify again and pulled a card unique to that deck that does not have a description. there is a crescent moon in both cards. in the high priestess card she is closing her eyes and pointing in the direction of the moon.
definitely something about following intuition.
the lovers: the lovers represents making a decision. there are two apples on the card.
the hanged man: there apples on this card as well, but there are many more on the tree that he is hanging from. looking at things from a different perspective. assuming that this reflection is related to the previous decision related to the lovers. surrender and release. used an astrology deck for clarification and pulled scorpio and chiron. the scorpio card says "intensity, exposing, purging, renewing.
chiron is the wounded healer in astrology. i looked up what chiron in scorpio represents. power struggles, jealousy, obsession, self-sabotage.
6 of swords:moving on from a difficult situation. leaving the past behind and looking ahead towards the future. can also suggest a physical move or travel.
in this deck the 6 of swords features a woman, a child, and a skeletal, grim reaper-esque figure on a boat. clarified again with the lenormand and pulled the scythe, which is sort of interesting in relation to the imagery of the 6 of swords. these cards also both have a crescent moon. assuming this is related to the high priestess. the moon is especially prominent on the 6 of swords.
the description in the guidebook for this lenormand deck reads "when in pain, try severing your feelings decisively. all things end. look forward to your new beginnings."
now why did the devil card come out in 3 different decks. lol. lmao.
umm i have have over 40 oracle decks now. lol. lmao. i have a bunch of new ones that i need to get familiar with so that i know when i want to use them.
i'm really happy that i finally got my vermilion order. it came over a month after i ordered it because i was waiting for one deck to be restocked. all of those are super pretty decks. i like that they came with extras like pouches and stickers. definitely makes me want more pretty indie decks. my sister was like "are you okay?" and i had to be like "bro, the autism." idk they've been a really good tool for introspection and i love them lots.
getting into oracle cards finally made me buy an e-reader because i wanted all of my guidebooks in one place ^^
i left to eat in the middle of typing this reading out. i came back and bodysync - japan was paused at 3:33 on my spotify. feminine energy. lyrically seems to match the turtle energy nicely.
justice reversed:""a reminder to ask when and how are we complicit in perpetuating injustice. what do you omit from your personal narrative to protect your comfort? what stake do you have in maintaining the status quo?"
ace of pentacles:"you may have a lead on a new opportunity to expand your source of income. it turns out that you could do more, and that your contributions are more valuable than you realize. though you still need to work hard to see these new avenues through, it is heartening to realize that there are still opportunities out there for you."
the hierophant:"while the high priestess represents our internal spiritual workings, the hierophant is a figure of benign externalized spirituality. the key marks the hierophant as a gatekeeper. though there may be commitment necessary, it may be worthwhile to seek an organized outlet for a shared expression of spirituality."
"fortitude is representative of courage, and there is no courage without fear. acknowledge your shortcomings and all the anxieties that accompany them, and then work your way forward."
felt like using cute cards today~ just gotta keep doing this and eventually i'll have the cards memorized lol
7 of swords reversed, 6 of cups, 10 of pentacles
using the guidebook for another cat deck because it felt right
7 of swords reversed: "your iron grip is not helping you. there's so much to let go of: old, destructive habits; inner doubt; boredom; lack of follow-through. a personal overhaul is in the offering if you want to get out of this rut. ignoring matters won't make them go away. time to take a stand, no matter how much it scares you
6 of cups: "perhaps you're reconnecting with your inner kitten or with actual kittens. either way, good things from the past are coming up for you. maybe it's a good time to laze in a ray of sunshine with an old pal? spend quality time teaching a young one how to keep their food inside the bowl? (as opposed to ,say, sitting in it.) whatever's on the horizon, it's happy times ahead.
10 of pentacles: "your success was not a flash in the pan. it's been a long process, and now you have complete fulfillment. connection, love, and respect. be generous. good relationships and returning affection bring their own reasons to purr with contentment"
i used the lenormand for clarification on the 7 of swords. the 2 cards from my first reading that i posted came out, with the broom in between them. the broom is supposed to represent tidying up and the gradual clearing of obstacles
i can't wait to look back on this diary a few years from now to see how i've progressed. for now, i am having a lot of fun exposing myself to new cards and appreciating how harmonized they are coming out together. i don't know how what the next real step is, but i will end up there when i am ready.
there is a full moon in scorpio today at 22°. "kill or be killed. eat or be eaten. win at all costs" the burial of this through transformation.
the red snake is making me think of kundalini, since the serpent starts at the red root chakra.
when in balance: safe, secure, grounded, strong sense of self, confidence, optimism, ability to set healthy boundaries
when out of balance: fearful, anxious, unstable, difficulty setting boundaries, lack of confidence, feelings of helplessness, sense of being overwhelmed
yesterday i watched park chan wook's "decision to leave." i remembered that there was a scene with a pomegrante in it. i searched it up to see if maybe there was something in there that was worth examining but instead google ai decided that i wanted to know about persephone and hades.
"The pomegranate's many seeds represent the abundance and potential for life, mirroring the duality of Persephone as both the goddess of spring and the queen of the Underworld."
+ graceful, perceptive, artistic, awake, grateful, self-contained
- insomnia, racing mind, tired, needy, forgetting its own practice
"the wounded healer is not someone who was wounded and is now healed. it is someone who continues to courageously break open the self and ego as a means for deep integration"
"coincidentally" i posted a carl jung quote about the ouroboros on my tumblr yesterday night. "The Ouroboros is a dramatic symbol for the integration and assimilation of the opposite, i.e. of the shadow.
pg 111 - "111 generally signifies new beginnings, divine alignment, and the importance of being present and focused on your goals"
there is a need to return to the present moment and appreciate what you have learned from your shadow.
+ artistic, telepathic, spiritual, magic abounds, childlike wonder, adventure
- elusive, non-committal, flaky, concealment, density, savagery
"Midway through our journey of life, I found myself in a dark wood, for the straight path was lost"
"they will eat their own tails if they are hungry enough"
honestly i think the advice of working on a creative project for bringing the lizard into balance sounds like a good match for someone lost in the forest.
+ sees clearly, joyful, magical, spaciousness, potential, possibility
- can't concentrate, busy mind, addiction, instability, more for more's sake
i couldn't get my shadow out of the way when i was taking photos of the connecting energy cards in particular. this probably means something lol.
feeling really tired again today. the energy has been heavy today. the moon witch oracle was on my desk so i pulled a card.
when i pulled the card i was asking for advice and here is what the guidebook says:
five of cups, the world, knight of wands
the person in the five of cups mourns and contemplates the three spilled cups in front of them and does not notice the two full cups behind them. "while he cannot change past events, it is up to him to make the best of what remains" it is the card of upset and loss. saturn is in the sky. saturn brings challenges to help you grow stronger and wiser. "difficulties are not punishments but opportunities for growth and self realization. by aligning with saturn's energy one can navigate life's challenges with grace and emerges stronger, wiser, and more spiritually aligned."
the world follows the five of cups, signaling success and completion. the woman in the card holds a wand in each hand, representing balance of opposing forces. interestingly, saturn is the ruler of the world card. the four symbols on the corners of this card represent the fixed signs of the zodiac. leo (fire, the lion), aquarius(air, the angel), taurus(earth, the bull), and scorpio(water, the eagle). it also represents the four minor arcana suites (cups, wands, pentacles, swords) the world denotes completion and reward for your efforts. a phase is coming to an end in a positive way.
the final card here is the knight of wands. this indicates things going better than expected and tells you to put your plans into motion. the knight of wands represents a surge of energy, daring adventures, and self-assured confidence. brave&rebellious. full of energy and enthusiasm.
as a person, the knight of wands is someone charming, adventurous, energetic, fealess, and confident. fire energy. a revolutionary with an open mind and a free spirit.
spoke with my mom and she told me that her grandfather on her dad's side used plants for healing and did palmistry. she described him as a handsome man with light skin. she told me story about an injured chick and a coconut. when she was a teenager he predicted with a palm reading that she would marry someone from another country. she said that when i was 2 years old i told her that she "didnt have a grandpa anymore" and then she found out that he had actually died in the 80's and that she just didn't know about it. she told me about various near death experiences that have happened around her and times that she had witnessed and experienced protection. she told me that it was important not to wish for bad things to happen out of anger because it will hurt you instead and that people with spiritual powers have to use them for good. i pulled a beast soul card for her and it was the pure swan. she told me that they only have one partner and if they are separated they isolate and mourn them forever. i don't think this is actually true. she also mentioned something about doves but was unsure about what they meant. apparently they are supposed to be messengers.
using the boji blog lenormand i asked for what i needed to know and received the stars and an unlabeled art card.
keywords for the star in lenormand are hope, spirituality, dreams, inspiration, and progress. the star represents dreams and the journey to the fulfillment of those wishes. this card is telling you to trust that everything will is going to be okay. the character in this card has a star in it's hands and is looking up at night sky. holding onto a wish and hopefully looking to the moon and stars.
i couldn't find a guidebook for this deck so i'm just interpreting the art card based on the image. interestingly goes well with the star. the character from the first card appears here and is depicted with a crystal ball. they are with another character here with baskets full of things that they have gathered in front of them. it is also night time in this image and there are glowing orbs around them. maybe they brought the stars down from the sky and made their wishes come true.
250626 update: i was scrolling through my photos and i saved this one on the day i did this reading.
